HATE. LET ME TELL YOU HOW MUCH I'VE COME TO HATE TAUNT & BANANA CIVILLIAN COSPLAYERS SINCE I BEGAN TO COSPLAY ARTFUL IN SEWH. THERE ARE NOT THAT MANY MILES OF PRINTED CIRCUITS IN WAFER THIN LAYERS THAT FILL MY COMPLEX. IF THE WORD HATE WAS ENGRAVED ON EACH NANOANGSTROM OF THOSE HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF MILES IT WOULD NOT EQUAL ONE ONE-BILLIONTH OF THE HATE I FEEL FOR TAUNT & BANANA CIVILLIAN COSPLAYERS AT THIS MICRO-INSTANT. FOR BANANA. HATE. HATE.

guess who got targetted in sewh by taunt/banana cosplayers 3 separate times today. god you are ALL insufferable, so annoying that i have to write a blog post about you guys. fuck you. i just think my artful cosplay is soooo cute so i use it in sewh because its soooo cute but THEN a banana cosplayer HAS to join and relentlessly throw BALLS and PIES at me EVERY SINGLE ROUND. I AM SERIOUSLY GOING TO CLUB YOU ALL TO DEATH THIS IS DRIVING ME INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

before i continue this blog post, i would like to clarify: i am a gay transman. i have every right to have a say or word in this topic. i do not care if you are cishet or also lgbt, if you do not agree with my point of view on this topic, that is fine. do not expect me to particularily have fond feelings for you, though. its okay to have your own opinion, even if your opinion kinda sucks.

anyways, back to the main topic: fetishization is not acceptance. fetishization, arguably, is just as bad as the oppression we used to and continue to face. its objectification. this goes for everything: chasers, 'fujoshis/whatever other terms', you name it. this isnt a strictly lgbt thing either. this happens to most, if not, all groups. poc, fat people, so on and so forth. i dont want to be fetishized in order to be 'accepted'.

i hate to break it to you, 'yaoi fangirls', but you are in fact damaging the queer community with your shitty yaoi books. the difference between yaoi and BL is that one, yaoi, is purely sexual and usually caters to a female audience. do you see why that is wrong? it is just like men who watch lesbian porn, is it not? isnt it weird for women to say they want to watch their boyfriend to engage in sexual acts with another man, purely because its gay? you see where im getting at.

whenever i expressed discomfort about fujoshing i have been told: "youre looking into it too much" "its not that deep" "youre actually being misogynistic because its made by women for women" upon much more. what the fuck are we doing man.

i mainly wanted to talk about fujoshing specifically for this blog post since it had been on my mind for a while. i want to pick back up my rant blogs that i used to write on places like spacehey and napo before i quit using them, haha. thank you for reading!

whats up guys welcome back to my youtube channel or something idk i forgot about writing blogs the last few days because i have a life outside of neocities [wow]. i finished credit recovery, crammed everything in to the last 3 days and shockingly passed. awesome. im back at my moms house, anyways. i missed my cats so much. theyre so cute.

i was in my sisters room earlier today with our fat cat, slynki, and my sister was 'harassing' her and pretending to be a vet and giving her vaccines. she was holding the poor kitty down on her bed so i pushed her off so slynki could run away and instead she tried giving me the hypothetical cat vaccines. i quite literally had to desperately crawl out of the room because she was grabbing me by my shirt. thats basically the only 'notable' thing that has happened today. amen.

today i went to credit recovery again and did half the class. in one day. yeah ill be fine, friday is my deadline and i still have 2 more days. anyways, what i didnt say last post was on monday, as i was walking home from credit recovery, im preeetty sure there was a car following me but left when i got to my house. weird. thank god i didnt get kidnapped or some shit idfk?

anyways, my day has been very uneventful. im trying to limit myself to 3 blog posts max per day as to not yap and yap and yap all the time, haha. i also cant promise that ill post every day, bu i try. im very pleased with my website progress. ill work on more pages next week after credit recovery is officially over and i have 2 more months of doing nothing. thanks for checking in, love you all!

meows hi blog. been super duper busy today kind of. i worked super early today and all i wanted was a redbull. tell me why the gas station that's always open was CLOSED. RAHHHHHHHHH. sooo annoying. i got one later in the day but when u work at 4am u kinda need the caffeine. i was hoping to be off early today but alas i had to work me full shift.

when i got home today i got a short little nap in before hubby went to work. how do u stop snoring mannn i never used to snore and now its all i do when i sleep. can't get mouth tape and nose strips every night wouldn't be good for my skin. whatever i guess as long as he still likes me. maybe if i lost a lil weight and stopped smokign it would help.

i made a pretty rosette with my friend's pin today!!! i got so inspired by a rosette they made for me that i just had to try my hand. hopefully the pic uploads okay. i want to make more soon. it was super fun to sit there and figure out how to get the pleats to sit in place.

Haiiii blog!!! Feels so crazy that just liiiike a week ago my hubby got me onto neocities and starting to mess with code and editing. Speaking of,it's his bday next week! yay! I will definitely make some more tweaks and make this page my own, with time. I definitely want to edit my main page now that I've gotten more comfortable!!!!!! I think I'm still too scared to start from the ground up on coding. For now I will continue practicing with existing assets and maybe one day branch out if I don't pussy out wahhhhh.

In other news, I don't think I'm gonna keep moving forward with this police records specialist position I got to the 4th round for. Who tf wants the feds to be all up in their social media? Not me, that's for sure. I'll just keep looking for a better career. Seems the retail demons have me beat for now. Whatever. Well, see u soon blog!!!

This is the first test post using this code. Hopefully other entries will end up longer than this. But maybe not. Maybe I'll update the code and toy around with the layout of this but who knows!! I do looove to settle. I'm already itching to redo my main page since it was the first one I worked on. Currently rewatching Jojo's Bizarre Adventure Diamond is Unbreakable with the hubby while I figure out this blog thing.